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Superbloom in California


It is the middle of spring and California is blooming. A few months back, I ventured to Lake Elsinore to see what all of the hype was about with these wildflowers, particularly the eye-catching poppy flowers, and why there were the talk of the town. After all, they are just flowers, right?

After doing some research via the inter webs, I soon found out the flowers had bloomed due to the unusual rainy season we had been experiencing. We had been in a drought for seven years and these beautiful flowers signified the end of the dry winters and even dryer summers. As I was walking up the side of the hill to witness this rare event for myself,  I started to think about my own “superbloom” and the trials I had to endure in order to get to the place I was at. A place of serenity and self-acceptance.

Like the flowers, I had been stuck in conditions that prevented me from reaching my full potential. I was hindered and bonded by toxic roots.

Towards the beginning of the year, I had experienced so much change that effected me in a negative way. I was heartbroken, confused, and searching for a new place where I could fit in. I was going through a dry spell in my life and it had pruned me of all of my beautiful leaves, my color was stripped to grey.

Breakups are complicated and messy, changing jobs is scary and uncertain, and cutting out toxic people is never an easy feat.

Standing amongst the poppy flowers in their mystical field felt surreal.

I had reached a destination that made it easier to think with a clear mind and use my imagination to propel my dreams into new and elevated places.

I have come to realized that it takes truly taxing seasons in life to fully appreciate ones life and in those seasons one is able to discover who they truly are.

I get what all the hype is about now.

I too have come out of the drought and I stand tall through adversity, displaying my bright colors and soft petals proudly.


Until next time,




Big Little Differences

Hey all!

I hope that you all are enjoying your week. As I took the time to fill my agenda with my daily obligations (such as work meetings and school deadlines) I began to ask myself, “Am I spending the majority of my time doing things that I love or at least something that brings me joy?”.

I realize that we all have obligations to work, school, or even social events that we would rather cross off our literal or figurative calendars, but that is just not the reality we live in. What I strive for in my own life is balance.

I realize that it is easier said than done, but trust me, it makes all of the difference. For every terribly boring task I am able to complete, I reward myself with something that brings me joy.

Such things include:

  • Watching an hour of YouTube
  • Reading for pleasure
  • Calling a friend
  • Painting my nails
  • Applying a glorious facemask
  • Journalling
  • Buying an article of clothing
  • Etc.,

Granted, each reward is awarded based on the amount of tasks completed or the complexity or time of a project. Having equated ratios is also key.

Another thing I am striving for this month is to weed out habits, people, and commitments that are toxic or that distract me from the important things in life.

I often find myself being that “yes” person, never wanting to disappoint or let anyone down (even if it is at my expense). One of the many things that brings me joy in life is helping others and volunteering, but on the other hand, I am a people pleaser so I allow these acts of service to take over every weekend and fill every gap of freetime that I have.

Again, balance keeps the unnecessary stresses at bay. Saying “yes” less often and removing myself from people and environments that make me feel inferior will improve my self-esteem and self-worth. In my twenty-four years of life on this Earth, I have come to the conclusion that you cannot please everyone and that I am allowed to put myself first. I should not allow myself to be put in an environment that leaves me feeling as though I need to change who I am in order to find approval from others. It simply is not worth it. This month I want to make small changes that will increase my happiness and genuinely alter my mindset and perspective in a positive way. I know that it is possible because I used to live that way. 2019 is the year that this effortful behavior continues.






Millennial Meltdown

Hello everyone…

long time no see. I believe I created this blog when I was about 20 years old and here I am, four years later, still on the journey of “finding myself”.

My life has been a hodgepodge of both positive and negative experiences since I last posted on this platform and I cannot wait to fill you all in.

I am a millennial and my life is anything but structured and organized and I feel like a lot of twenty somethings can relate to this uneasiness about their futures and current status in life.

As cheesy as this may sound, 2019 is going to be the year that I set aside the fears or the unknown and run towards my dreams and aspirations. I am making a conscious effort to change my mindset, which in turn should and will change the trajectory of my life in a positive-forward direction.

If you are interested on whether or not I am able to pull this off, I invite you to metaphorically and literally follow me on this crazy/exciting journey we call life.

I am ready to escape from this quicksand, otherwise known as my twenties.





I was thinking about making a video to post on my blog about my experience with being bullied. If you have ever been bullied or know of someone who has and would like your story included in the video, please feel free to leave your experiences in the comments or message me. You can also leave your username to any social media accounts you would like to be seen in video. I have a passion to shed light to this problem and put an end to it. Nothing can be fixed over night, but progress can lead to major change. 


Renewed Mentality 

I haven’t posted in a while. So much has occurred in my life.  I think I’ve grown as a person… Unless, I hope I have. I still have an existential crisis now and then, but I’m hopeful. I am  hopeful that I will find myself in God. I am hopeful that where I am right now, is not where I’ll stay. Life is confusing and depressing at times, but life is also  gentle and precious. The scriptures say that “joy comes in the morning”. So I’m going to continue in this games we call life. Because in the end, even in the darkest hole that there is, everything (with God) has the potential to be okay.